hi im salem! im a gay trans man with fibromyalgia among other health issues
every day i experience body wide pain so intense that unless i have my pain medication i cant do anything but lay in bed and cry. my pain medication is integral to my quality of life and my physical/mental health
due to being bedbound most of the time because of my severe fibro ive been unable to work and dont have any money to buy the pain medication that helps make my life bearable. im also almost out of the medication that i have left so i need to get a refill soon!
i hate to do this but if you could spare any money towards helping me get my pain meds i would greatly appreciate it!
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and for those who would like something out of it:
if you show me proof that you donated at least $5 ill do a 3 card tarot reading (ive been reading tarot for 10 years) for you with the deck of your choice. questions can be anything aside from medical advice
Congratulations to Marcille DungeonMeshi for achieving Pathetic Little Man status on tumblr, a hard glass ceiling for many female characters to break. I look forward to calling you my sopping wet beast and poor little meow meow for fandom days to come. Keep trucking babygirl, you’ll bag Falin one day
Teeth are bullshit. What do you mean you’re decaying. Get a fucking grip. You’re a bone now act like it. You don’t see my finger bones decaying from jerking it too much now do you
i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.
as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages…whoops) and went like “this is literally a master’s-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master’s program, what the fuck.”
NOW??? NOW?? you’d think I’d be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING
The skill can come back and it often does. It is not unusual for it skill recedes during stressful and painful times. Maybe you just need more stability/safety/kind people around you.
I have been through something similar a few times in my life with writing, yoga, studying…
Admittedly, my life is always financially and socially precarious, so my notion of stability currently just means “enough money to pay the rent and food for the next few months.”
It is hard to hold onto anything when you have to fight for survival all the time, either materially or emotionally.
Wow, uh. Okay, I’m gonna need a minute to process “It is hard to hold onto anything when you have to fight for survival all the time…”. You’re genuinely rewiring my brain is we speak.
Thank you, this means a lot to hear. <3
Thank you as well. We have to help each other in this hellscape whenever we can.
Unstoppable Force (my love of seeing other people’s takes/stylization on my OCs) vs Immovable Object (my gripping fear of not doing other people’s OCs enough justice when I draw them)
Changing my belief system from “this is the hill I’ll die on” to “this is the hill I’ll kill you on” has done absolute wonders for me 10/10 do recommend
This is modern art. The tragedy and hopelessness is perfectly encapsulated in your lack of a choice. Were you in his place, you would do no different. Because the gods have deemed it so, because fate is stronger than you. I’m usually not a big art person but holy shit
Remember when people got mad at me when I said “if you can’t even name 10 trans men activists from the 1980s-2010s I don’t think any of your takes about trans men and our experiences have any value imo. Especially if you aren’t a trans man.” And then people got mad at me?? Like damn sorry I expect people to know a little history before they talk about a group of people .
This is like the time some trans dudes on Reddit got mad at me bc I asked them if they read any transfeminist works bc their ideas about trans women and their experiences were very weird… like I don’t think it’s that crazy of an idea to think people should read and learn about a group before they try to speak/advocate for that group…
Why do some trans people act like you are hatecriming them when you ask them to read trans history and theory … or just talk to other trans people about their experiences . It’s not that crazy of a thing to ask.
Please pick up a book. Read a bit. Learn about other trans people.
So this is just my take, but the key to understanding Kabru Dungeon Meshi is understanding that the Touden’s party was one of the top parties in the dungeon.
You eventually learn the mission they were on when they encountered the red dragon, and it involved going as far into the dungeon as anybody had gone before. Their party lineup was two top-level mages, Marcille and Falin (okay, Marcille’s practical magic skills are kind of questionable, but we’re told that Falin was extremely talented within her areas of specialty) Two excellent fighters: Shuro and Namari, and Chilchuck, who considering that he runs the guild, is likely one of the most experienced half-foot trapsmiths working on the island. Laios is party leader, and while he’s not the greatest fighter, he’s quite good, and his obsessive knowledge of monsters means that he can guide the others. You see how Laois’s knowledge helps the party already, now imagine if they had a support caster, a dwarf whose almost certainly a much better fighter than Senshi, and another tallman who is almost certainly a much better fighter than Laois all working on that knowledge.
So with that in mind, lets revisit Kabru and his obsession. Kabru knows people, and can read them very well. He’s also got a wider perspective on the nature and danger of dungeons due to his backstory. Kabru isn’t here to get rich delving the dungeon, he’s here to Solve A Problem. He’s a relatively recent arrival to the island, that or his mismatched skillset means that he and his party are much slower to progress through it than the Touden’s party. Either way, he spots the Touden party as The Party To Watch when it comes to conquering the dungeon. Laois, as party leader, is obviously of particular concern.
So, Kabru turns all his insight onto Laois and he gets…nothing. Laois cares about money from a pragmatic standpoint, but isn’t especially concerned with it. He’s easily conned. He’s not driven by hatred, greed, or ambition. There’s some curiosity there, but it’s not the driving curiosity of an obsessive academic, Laois is an enthusiastic hobbyist who has figured out how to make his particular interest into a valuable skillset.
Kabru is looking for the protagonist of an epic fantasy tale, and he finds…just a guy. A guy who didn’t feel at home anywhere, and found a place and a life where he was welcome and valued. A guy whose skillset and companions puts him first in a race he doesn’t even know he’s running. And if you’re Kabru, that’s infuriating and fascinating in equal measure.
Hope it’s ok to add. Like OP said, Kabru sees highly skilled, standoffish, near-unapproachable champions of the dungeon. He expects their leader to have certain qualities that command authority, respect, or maybe even fear. Laois isn’t just the leader of highly skilled individuals, he is a figure which transcends cultural and racial differences. Kabru is expecting a party-wide dynamic which is streamlined and instilled by Laios.
But Laios doesn’t garner respect, awe, or fear- his party listens to him because he establishes a strong sense of trust through observation and acknowledging their input. Laios isn’t a facilitator of objectives, he’s a companion. His leading style is the opposite of detached, he has a relationship of mutual trust with every individual in his party. The party doesn’t rely on this trust when they are on the surface or in the higher floors. From Kabru’s perspective, he probably suspects that Laios (and maybe Falin) is blackmailing his party members. Because he hasn’t seen the group in action, Kabru doesn’t know that Laios shines brightest in high stress situations. All he sees is a party of the best people around being led by A Guy that they don’t even seem to like that much (if the expressions of disgust are anything to go off of)
Kabru has never seen why these super-capable individuals follow Laios as a leader because Laios only leads when necessary. Which makes sense because Chilchuck, Marcille, Namari, Shuro, Senshi, and of course a traumatized 17 year old, wouldn’t listen to the commands of someone who is always authoritative
people are way too comfortable being dismissive of children and teenagers. if a toddler comes up to you and starts explaining skibidi toilet lore or if a 13 year old asks you if you want to hear about their mha ocs you have to listen with utmost sincerity or at least pretend to. this is the only way you will get into heaven.
genuinely depressing how people will dismiss the interests kids have because all it does is make them retreat into shame and never want to talk to you about anything again
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